An apology....

I'm sorry to all the people I have angered, upsetted or made leave the Internet..... What have I done...? I was only trying to be the hardest at drawing gifts and pictures...but know its all my fault...I bullied, spoke mean, bad attitude and avoiding conversations.....I do not deserved to be loved...I'm such a cruel monster that doesn't need to live on the Internet, I had hard times in the past, and now this year.... I'm nothing but trash... A racist person who gets bullied alot...and a terrible friend..... I'm a heartless monster that shows no kindness and no friendship.... It is all my fault...all those years...ALL THOSE YEARS I have avoided their tips and help.....I'm such a heartless monster....I should've listen to them more.....I should never change the subjects anymore...and never will...I have a hard life irl as well, and I don't know how much hurt I am, and I hate myself..and wanted to impale myself with a knife through the chest.... You wouldn't care, you would be happy and say “she was annoying!" I deserved all the hate I got....and now there's nothing I can do...

im sorry to my friends....I hope you understand..... You can yell at me, scream at me...and steal my ocs....